udah di kelas sumpek liat pelajaran ahhh tai . seperti biasa pergantian pelajaran gue gunain buat tidur.
tadi malem gue kurang tidur banget hahaha mana ga pulang ke rumah zz .
hari ini ga tau kenapa semua tulisan di buku gue bertuliskan ***** ga maksud nulis tapi pengen aja .
heeeeeeeeem sepulang sekola gue + sarah ke kelas bella + resthu niatnya mau minjem hape buat ol soalnya
hape gue sama sarah lowbet . ol lah si sarah and then dia chat sama si tututut pokonyaaaaw. feeling gue udah ga enak tuh. si sarah nyembunyiin sesuatu. ah ternyata feeling gue bener apa yg diomongin sarah sama orang itu 'dia dan dia in relationship' !!!! jadi bangke tuh gue disituh. rasanya pengen teriak sekenceng-kencengnya tapi itu di kelas orang :( pertamanya sih gue cuma ngelamun2 aja eh kesananya gue malah nangis ! ah malu2in aja gue nangis di kelas orang. hahahahahaANJING bangetlah ga kuat ! I honestly can not he go clay. rasanya campur aduk gue pengen marah, gue pengen nangis ah semuanya laaaah.
sarah says : udah ga usah ditangisin lagi semua ada balesannya
resthu says : udah ah rizkaa ga usah nangis cuma gara2 itu
bella says : udah atuh udah ga usah di terusin nangisnya .
"feel guilty" itu yg gue rasain sayang . makanya gue ga bisa berenti nangis . ahh sekarang gue ngerti apa yg selama ini
gue selalu omongin . gue tau kalo semua ga selalu diatas, gue pasti ngerasain itu dan inilah ....... :(
I admit I was wrong I should not do things like that and now I feel what he felt at that time. very sore. maybe I'll shed tears continuously for not that easy to forget the people I love. I know I'm not the best for him. his lover is now indeed more things than I am. now I realize if we do not want to hurt us was not hurt. I regret this. I should have had more people vote for him than that. but now it's too late you're not to be mine again. I can not remove this departure from the heart. but I'll try. maybe you'll be happier with her. I'm not the perfect woman for you. I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. but you have to know the heart behind it all I still have you. now and until whenever I ask you never remove all of our memories. I know we open a couple again. but I hope you understand. in front of you I'll always laugh but if you tough out my heart I was very hurt here :((
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